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Your Cell Phone May be Causing Your Acne!

Yep…that’s almost what it feels like too! Courtesy of flavourmag.co.uk

So I woke up this morning and came across a pretty interesting article about some often overlooked causes for acne.

Acne, as most of us know, is a condition that causes an abnormal amount of zits and pimples to appear on the face and body from dirt and oil build up. Acne, like hirsutism, is typically hormonal, but other factors can play like stress and bad dieting decisions.

This article detailed some hidden things that may be causing acne in places that we may not realize.

The Yahoo Health article by Angela Haupt details activities that may be making you blow up zits all over the place.

What I will do here is summarize what Angela detailed in my words and give my own opinion on each “cause.”

  1. Cell Phones: This may hold some truth. I mean, who routinely cleans their cell phone? You talk to people all throughout the day, meaning before and after washing your face and hands so you are in essence just transferring dirt to your cell phone over and over. And then laying that device on one side of your face over and over. So when Angela points out the potential of developing acne on your face, particularly along the jaw line and chin, I believe it.

    Cell phones may be causing your acne. Courtesy of 123rf.com

  2. Yoga Mats: I do not practice yoga, but Angela says that when you lay your hands on the same place you lay your feet and then put those very hands on your face, it is possible to promote pimple development. Keep your work out gear (mats, clothing, etc.) clean routinely.
  3. Makeup:  It is imperative that if you wear makeup while acne-prone, keep your face washed at all times. And make sure you pay attention to ingredients too. Oil based make ups (especially ones containing mineral oil) need to be avoided at all costs. I personally develop God-awful blackheads if I wear oil-based foundation for too long. My preference is powdered foundations. According the Acne.org, a welcomed oil for acne is jojoba oil.
  4. Anti-Aging Creams: I do not use these either, but my guess is they are very oily, as Angela stated. She also points out that some ingredients in these types of creams, like retinol, while helpful with some skin conditions, may be an irritant to acne. So try to find a non-oil based aging cream or something without well-known skin irritants like retinol in it.
  5. Medications: I know some medicines, particularly those for steroids and hormonal disorders, may do more damage than good when dealing with acne. Angela suggest (and I agree) to chat with a doctor about all the pros and cons of all the medications you are taking for acne or other disorders you may have as to not trigger an acne outbreak unknowingly. Also, consider natural supplements to any medications you have to take for your conditions.
  6. Dandruff and Hair Products: Now I am not terribly sure how scalp flakes can cause acne, but I can imagine the build up of dirt in general in your hair and failing to shampoo your hair more often may lead to acne, particularly around the edges of your scalp. Ingredients from hair products (oil, alcohol, etc.) do not help either. For folks with longer hair, consider the idea of acne on your neck and back because of bad hair hygiene. Look into a medicine based shampoo, as Angela advised.
  7. Sunscreen: If it is not oil-based, you should be good to go.
  8. Traveling: Now I believe in this one passionately. I had a good friend suffer from horrible acne for quite some time. He moved to Seattle from Virginia and I swear his face cleared up over night! Coming from a place where there is a lot of industrial business (shipyards, military, dust, grime, etc.) to a place where it always rains and simply has a different climate to it, very much so helped in his case. Even when I go out in nice weather consecutively with my children, my face clears up from impurities too. My only beef is dieting while traveling. Make sure you eat healthy foods and foods that don’t look too questionable.

    Traveling my help/hurt your acne. Courtesy of stuffunemployedpeoplelike.com

  9. Stress: Well, this should be a gimme. Stress will kill you slowly; I firmly believe that. It will cause you depression, illness, body soreness, and just a crabby mood in general. For me, stress makes me grey quicker, lose a ton a weight (considering I’m already skinny) and my hair falls out. I feel I develop mild acne as well and battling my hirsutism feels that much worse. Stress does truly make your body change; I believe that. Take more short breaks at work, find exercises that you actually enjoy, go for more walks, consider looking for a new job if your boss is a dickhead, hang out with more inspiring friends, get out of a bad relationship, read more, go for more rides, hell, if possible, pick up an easy part-time job or hobby that does not require any stress whatsoever. Stress should have no place in your life, even though it is not always avoidable. I can testify to that.
  10. YOU!: You may be causing your acne more than anything else! Laying in your bed you develop germs and then you wake up and wipe your eyes. You scratch your butt, back, hair and then maybe rub your eyes or scratch your chin in the morning. Throughout the day, you may hug or shake hands with friends and coworkers, go to the bathroom, forget to wash or hands or don’t wash your hands well and then put your hands on your face….you just transferred 500 types of germs to your acne-prone face! It’s habitual and everyone does it so don’t beat yourself up too much but do be more mindful of the stuff you put on your face, including…well…YOU!

Hirsutism = Avoidant Personality Disorder?

I already wrote a post about hirsutism and depression and how the two are related when dealing with hormonal problems. It is quite the expectation to have lowered self-esteem when dealing with such health issues.

I have come to the conclusion that most hirsute girls are quite normal but they choose to deal with their hurt and depression in the dark. And that is probably another reason why there are not many books and medical reports on hirsutism when compared to other hormonal health concerns.

I was looking at personality disorders and something I might suffer from and do not even know it. My hirsutism has not helped at all in dealing with life in general!

I was so used to being upset and angry about it, I found a crazy way to equate it to everything wrong in my life.

“He dumped me….because I’m hirsute.”

“I didn’t get that job….because I’m hirsute.”

“She went off on me for no damn reason…because I’m hirsute.”

“My ankles are ashy…because I’m hirsute.”

“The world stop spinning on its axis…because I’m hirsute.”

“I am not beautiful….because I’m hirsute.”

Trust me when I say I OBSESSED about my extra body hair. To the point it affected how I dealt with social issues.

Even to this day, I am quite shy and introverted in certain social settings and it takes me some time to open up because I am scared someone will see my hyperpigmentation from all the tweezing and yanking I have been doing to my skin for many years because of the hair.

So when I cam across the disorder, Avoidant Personality Disorder, I could not help but to equate myself to this.

According to the A.D.A.M. Medical Encyclopedia, “avoidant personality disorder is a mental health condition in which a person has a lifelong pattern of feeling very shy, inadequate, and sensitive to rejection.”

If this is not me, even as I have found ways to deal with my hirsutism, I don’t know what is!!

People with this disorder exhibit the following, according to the article linked above:

  • Be easily hurt when people criticize or disapprove of them (Check!)
  • Hold back too much in intimate relationships (Partial Check!)
  • Be reluctant to become involved with people (Double Check!)
  • Avoid activities or jobs that involve contact with others (Partial Check!)
  • Be shy in social situations out of fear of doing something wrong (Double Check!)
  • Make potential difficulties seem worse than they are (Triple Check!)
  • Hold the view they are not good socially, not as good as other people, or unappealing (Partial Check!)

The article states that antidepressants and just having someone to talk to are the best treatment options.

That’s why I firmly believe many women with hirsutism may have this disorder. I know women who are “happily” married with children and feel so upset and alone dealing with their hirsutism, even while having an understanding spouse.

I don’t have a spouse yet and I feel I will not be a good wife some days. Although I do not obsess about my hirsutism nowhere near as bad as I did several years ago, I feel I have programmed myself to be too isolated, making friends and being a socialite towards potential mates a huge challenge.

Seriously, I can count one less than one hand of the REAL friends I have remaining in my life! That is probably my own fault; but then again, I know how to give an asshole the dueces real quick!

But the bottom line is, if you suspect you have this disorder, as you can see, it’s nothing alarming in a life-threatening way, but it is quite possible it may affect your quality of life. You really need to find someone to talk to, even if it means chatting with folks online if you are too intimated to chat with people in your personal surroundings.

Hey, feel free to talk to me too!

And try chatting with someone who knows you well or wants to get to know you well. If you don’t know anyone, write about it! Simply take some time out to write about your sadness with hirsutism and then simply put your notebook down and take a nice walk, go out to eat or just go do something out of the norm. You will feel better, trust me!

You could try talking to a professional but I personally believe these conditions can be self-treated. Plus not may professionals really know how to deal with hirsutism and its associated depression. I had to go to a couple endocrinologists before finally getting a satisfying reply myself.

Don’t let your thoughts be alone in your isolation before they literally start eating away at your life. Let it be known, even if it means blogging about it!

Thanks for reading!





And you think Hirsutism is Bad? Imagine removing facial Finger Nails and facial Tree Bark….

Lovely Shanyna Isom was a student of law at University of Memphis back in 2009. She also was a beautician.

Shanyna Isom Before and after her mysterious, unknown disorder that causes her skin to grow nails, not hair. Courtesy of WREG.com

She suffered from an asthma attack that same year, went to a local ER were she received a strong dose of steroids to control the attack, and her life changed…

She was sent home, started itching terribly and went back to the hospital for a Benadryl prescription, which did not work.

Before she knew it, Shanya was covered in scabs on her skin. It started in her legs, then traveled to her head, making her lose much of her hair.

The “scab” takeover claimed a great deal of weight; according to a Good Morning America article, Shanyna was losing nearly 10 pounds a week at one point.

The odd thing about the “scabs” is that she produced 12 times as many skin cells in her hair follicles than normal.

Instead of growing hair, even excessive hair, she started sprouting small finger nails!! All over her body!

After chatting with countless doctors, some even saying there is no hope for her, Shanyna and her mom found treatment at John Hopkins Medical Center….but no cure.

Doctors say she is the only person on the planet to have this type of disease!

Close of Shanyna’s skin, covered in nails! Courtesy of bellenews.com

Since starting her treatments at John Hopkin’s, Shanyna appears to be getting better, but her unknown condition is far from cured.

You can read more about Lovely Shanyna and her journey at her blog, Find A Cure.

Though my fight was no where NEAR as much of a struggle, I certainly can relate to this woman’s pain of having no answers and doctor’s not knowing how to help or wanting to help.

She certainly is one courageous lady!!!

This also reminds me of the tale of the “tree boy” from Indonesia who grew what appeared to be tree roots from his skin.

Dede, from Jakarta, was abused and neglected from some in his family and villagers because of his unusual disorder, of course sending him into grave depression and self remorse. He developed the condition as a teen after getting a cut in an accident and never treating it.

It is believed, according to an American dermatologist named Anthony Gaspari, that Dede suffers from an extreme and rare type of HPV (human palliloma virus) which can gradually be treated and Dede could live a normal life.

A specific regimen of medicines, particularly Vitamin A, could make Dede’s life more normal.

Dede Koswara. Courtesy of health24.com

…..Makes me feel grateful to only have to deal with facial hair and a furry bikini line! You never know when and where others got shit worse than you!

Let’s All pray for a cure for Shanyna and Dede!





Why I am choosing to write about Adam Lanza, shooter responsible for the mass killings at Sandy Hook Elementary School in Newtown, Connecticut

My priceless cargo!!!

I am not going to spend too many words discussing Adam Lanza, the man responsible for the killing of numerous small children and teachers in Newtown, CT today at Sandy Hook Elementary School…

I have no interest in glorifying his name, not even in the slightest.

Sorry ladies for going off topic a wee bit, but my oldest daughter, Kira, celebrated her 6th birthday yesterday and I woke up to this terrible news in Connecticut…

My heart wants to express remorse for this clearly disturbed individual; something clearly was wrong with him.

And not only was there something wrong with this individual, but clearly it was ignored for quite some time.

The normal human brain does not wake up one day and tell its body to start shooting up little babies….something was terribly wrong with this young man and the other suspected individual(s) responsible.

All the shootings that have taken place in our country in the past 5-10 years were almost always over something hidden within their minds….something ugly but very, very real…something dismissed as just a crazy person, or something that people simply cannot or will not address! It drives me batty!!!!!!

As crazy as this sound, I cannot help but to associate those hidden, dark feelings to girls dealing with hirsutism or any issue that makes them hate themselves and just hate life!

Ladies (and gentlemen), you cannot bury your sadness, regardless what it may be over. You are simply not doing yourself no favors living life pissed over something you cannot control. You develop a discord with your true happy self and adapt to being angry and hateful and that poison slowly controls all aspects of your life. That is what depression does.

You hate waking up, you hate other people’s happiness, you hate smiling, you hate socializing, you just HATE.

I have spoken to countless girls who are so upset and hurt over their condition(s) and it is simply something you cannot avoid. You build unnecessary anger that may make you snap.

I admit; I have snapped. I snap on my kids occasionally, I use to snap at people on the job, I have gotten into hideous fights with my sister because I…snapped! Other underlining factors played a part in my triggering to go off on people, but my hirsutism-induced depression did not help at all.

Please talk to someone ladies. Please find an outlet. PLEASE…

I don’t give a shit….write me an email, leave your number, if you need a friend, if you are THAT depressed about your condition, talk to me. I will be your friend! I’m dead fucking serious…I’ve done it before!!! I actually enjoy it! 🙂

Do not think for a minute you HAVE to live life in the dark, only waiting to snap on someone in the street, in school, in a mall, in the car, in an elementary school…You are not doing yourself or people who love you any favors.

I am not assuming you are going to go on a shooting rampage, hirsute girl. But I KNOW you are too valued of a person to waste your life on hate and even worse, self-hate.

You got to let the shame and fear go…you have to say to yourself  “I do not like my life…I do not like myself…I do not like that I feel this way…I want to change.” And just GO for it, and never look back at that vicious attitude about yourself.

Do not ignore your emotions or feelings. Do not ignore the bullies or the teasing. Someone, somewhere holds you close to their heart and wants to see you prosper, not sit around feeling less than a woman, less than human because you may be or look a little different or act different from the “typical.”

You cannot measure hate. You cannot determine how clouded a person is with loathe until it is too late…until they hurt others with their words, fists or guns…

As a mom, my heart holds heavy for the children and adults who lost their lives so terribly in Newtown, CT today. To know those babies will never get to open gifts underneath the tree this Christmas makes me fight tears while I am typing at this very moment…

As I write this blog, I plan on holding my children very strongly tonight and will continue to do so throughout their lives.

In closing, I say to you all: Please do not hold your emotions in darkness. Regardless if it’s your hirsutism, your PCOS, your hair loss, weight gain, your diabetes, your love life, your marriage, your grades, your friends, your finances…Please know that someone, somewhere values your words and wants to see you and your life blossom for the good.

Please keep the children of Sandy Hook Elementary School in your hearts always….

It’s Ok…Your Hirsutism-Induced Depression is Quite the Expectation

Depressed young woman. Courtesy of abovetopsecret.com

After researching some more medical studies on hirsutism, I came across quite a few of repetitive studies on hirsutism and depression.

It appears to be the norm (and understandably so) to be very depressed while dealing with excessive facial and body hair. For a young girl to deal with looking and feeling unfeminine can damage one’s self esteem in ways she or other hirsutes can understand.

Most hirsute girls tend to keep away from social settings, thus making it hard for her to make friends or have anyone to talk to about her condition.

And because she stays away from people so much, it makes it hard to feel accepted because she has grave difficultly accepting herself.

She looks in the mirror from far away and sees a normal girl, maybe even a rather beautiful one. But a close up reveals unsightly hair after unsightly hair, almost in the formation of that of a beard or mustache.

She spends nights crying to herself wondering what in the hell did she do so wrong to look like this? Why won’t it just go away? Is there a pill, a medicine, an exercise she should do to get rid of it?

She is scared to date and even make friends with other women for the fear of someone noticing her hair growth and judging her by that. She may feel other girls will find something they dislike about her and will further insult her through her hirsutism.

(Man, I know this shit too damn well, don’t I?)

According to one study, it is quite normal for teenage hirsute girls to feel a great deal of anxiety with their lives as opposed to “normal” teenage girls.

Another study showed that drastic results from laser hair removal greater helps improve a young girl’s self esteem. Too bad laser hair removal is so damn expensive. And it’s quite sad that young girl has to ask her parents for laser hair removal for her 16th birthday.

(But I prefer laser hair removal to a boob job.)


Another study correlates that hirsutism and increased testosterone are related to depression as well. Unfortunately, this does not differenitate between hirsutism and idiopathic hirsutism, meaning all of your hormonal levels are normal.

I can imagine the studies will probably not differ that much if comparing the types of hirsutism.

Facial hair fucking sucks! Period! And asking a young hirsute girl to accept herself is just plum hard and easier said than done when everyone else around her looks normal.

People don’t know what it’s like to be the “other guys;” ya know, the weirdo kids with little friends in school but the best grades, the special-needs kids that everyone was terrified of, the foreign exchange student that who dresses like color coordination does not exist because they never cared to, or the girl in math with the patchy sideburns.

No one knows what the “other kid” feels like unless they are one. If you are then welcome to my blog! 🙂

If you are hirsute and reading this, understand your self loathe and saddness is normal and I can tell you that most hirsute women are feeling what you are. Even if you are depressed, understand there are countless reasons why people develop depression, so you are not alone in your hopeless or thought of hopelessness.

There are cures to depression however. I sternly believe people were not put on this planet to be miserable. Life and all its nonsense has a way of disturbing the natural order of happy. Does not mean that it can’t be undisturbed!

There is life outside of hirsutism and depression. It’s just all about not being afraid to go out there and enjoy yourself. Besides, there is nothing in the mirror besides what you want to see. The real bliss is in looking at life 3 dimensionally; you will see things that you were never able to see before….like how beautiful you are inside and out!